Like Crazy

So i have been sharing my life especially my non existent soon to be exisent love life. I hereby declare that i think i found my man. Yes, ironically enough, this blog is entitled "Finding the man" yet now i think i found him.
Why do i say this, i say this because as my other posts have provided a background, i met this guy in church and we've serving together in the youth ministry. Read my post: Is there a one? or click on
http://lnjuma.blogspot.com/ for the whole story.

Anyway, am sure now you are up to date with the whole story. I will share how i know he is the one is my next post. :-)
A few weeks ago, this man that makes me smile, confessed his feelings to me... It was yeah not moment. It was yeah because i know he'd been feeling that he was too constrained to truly share his feelings but not because am not ready to hear such words from anybody new unless those i exchange such words with.. It was honestly scary and sent my mind and heart racing for all the wrong/right resons. Yes it is true i want to hear the man say this but i can not handle that now. Am healing from a past relationship and engaging this man now would not only be wrong but unfair to both he and i considering we will be in the relationship together.
And so we took a break from each other: no phone calls, texts, emails, chats, hugs, no nothing other than the casual hi and bye when we meet every Sunday... And its been the hardest thing ever...

Its been almost 2 weeks since the break and to be honest I miss my man like crazy! I always delighted in knowing that he was near to me but now there is nothing! Am complaining yet am the one who set the rules! He is sooo handsome! Damn! Thank you God for making my man that hot! I call him my man because I now know that he is mine and for life I believe! He is the one I want to call my own,to call whenever and anytime ,to receive nothing but sweet texts,emails,letters from,the one I want to call baby and all other sweet names,the one whose heart he has given to me to take care of it! I really do adore this man with all that i am.

I extended the break meaning i will be off him until next year!! This sends loneliness shivers all over my skin but i know it was the best!!

I think of him every single day!! He is like the second thought registered in my mind after my God. I think of how sweet he is, how amazing our future together will be, how much i miss and will miss him for the time we will be apart!!

It was sooo sweet yet disheartening seeing him crushed when i told him how long our break would be. But i like the fact that he took it positively and he is willing to support me in all this. Just goes to show how sweet and amazing he is. I really like him and as much as i would love to be with him for the next coming months, i would rather wait and enjoy the rest of my life with him, furthermore how does 4 months compare to a whole lifetime? How i pray God will grant us our desires.

However, I will not be totally apart from him, I got Sundays to see him: for me to put a face to the man that he is , to see the biggest smile on that handsome face of his, to see how sexy and good looking he still is and see how devoted and sold out to God He really is. Once in a while when we will be visiting our Pastors, i will get the chance to hear his wise words and his hearty laugh, this will be music to my ears!!


I miss him but i cant wait for this period to be over, then fireworks, love, friendship and companionship will be our portion.
Amen to this prayer...... :-)