Yesterday i had a melt down; sort of i was depressed. I thought to myself, surely life has got more to offer than me just waking up early in the morning, prepare to go to work, reach my workplace, check my personal mail and facebook, start work, finish work and either head home or to the gym. When i do get home am so tired all i want to do is eat and sleep. And that is that. That is the end of my day and when i wake up, its morning again and i start all over again. Do not forget that am a child of God but surely, am still human. Which led me to really think about my life.. And so i was really at a place where i wanted answers and i got a few from friends urging me to do new hobbies, appreciate that which i have, my man particularly told me to wait till our break then i would find out(he's even counted the days till our break ends, he cracks me up :-)). But i thought to myself, all these i can do and not still be happy, satisfied, fulfilled. As humans, we always look for the next best thing:next best new car, new girl/boy in the hood, Tv series/program, movie, job, experience. But after all is said and done, and the new becomes the old, what happens to us? Are we satisfied? Or the search still continues?
As a christian, this made me really think of my relationship with my maker. Do i really understand His plan for my life? Do i have that intimate relationship with Him that am able to know when He is talking and speaking to me? To know when, where, how i should lead my life? To know who and why certain people are in my life? Its a tough situation to be in, trust me, am there and am trying to get past it. But am grateful that indeed i will get past it. That i will not lose my main focus and goal in life. That i will not forget how i ended up here. Its by His grace that i am where i am. I may feel like i deserve MUCH more than i have now, but His word is still true in my life and it will come to pass. What do i need to do, just be patient and wait for Him to fulfill everything in my life because He does indeed make everything beautiful in His time. How great a God do i serve? He is loving and caring; even if i feel that life is unfair or inadequate, He still assures me that He got this. :-)
And so, my question to myself is answered just by retrospecting and i dare say, there is much more to this life, there is God and how i love Him!!! Forever!!!
