Missing You

I miss you sooooooo muuuuuuchhhh sweety!

I miss the man who calls me beautiful and indeed makes me feel just that:beautiful
I miss the sweet man who truly adores me and makes me feel like the prettiest woman on earth!
I miss the man who checks up on me and sends me the sweetest texts and emails,
I miss the man who prays for me,encourages me and speaks over my life,

I miss the man whose eyes declare it all,declare that he wants to be with me,
I miss the man whose tender,soft touch is mine to crave for,
I miss the man who hugs me so tightly and sweetly that I don't want to let go.
I miss the man who showers this here lady with gifts that are not only sweet but well thought of!
I miss the man who says he thinks of me often and smiles when he sees me,
I truly miss you soooo much Joab Washington Ochieng with all that I have and all that is in me!
Can't wait for the day that the break will be over and that I can finally be your lady! Mwaaaah my handsome!!!!



Yours,
Your Beautiful

Letter to My Man

I have been lately inspired to read devotionals involving marriage and marriage life, particularly the Unveiled Wife.. Its a really good read with snippets of things to do and not to do when you are the wife.. I have personally purposed to adhere to the advice when my turn comes to be a girlfriend, fiancee and eventually wife to someone or should i say to my man.
And so i viewed the blog and i particularly loved a section where ladies were writing letters to their husbands. It is often said that we rarely appreciate those around enough yet they shape our lives more than we could know. This here has inspired me to write to my future man who i will eventually spend the rest of my life loving. :-)

To my love:

Its often said that relationships break because of the things that go unsaid.. Today, i take that challenge and share with you what is in my heart when i think of you...

I love you very much.. I love you for who you are and describing you is like a favourite story that i love to tell.Its in your devotion to God and being sold out to Him that i draw my inspiration to be more like you everyday,and i truly follow you as you follow Jesus.

Baby, its in the way you smile so brightly when you see me that welcomes me and assures me that my man is here and he will take all the pain away.

God's design and final product of you is a gift to me, i love how he chiseled your shoulders, sculptured your handsome face and drew a smile on that lovely face that i love to stare at....You are my dream come true, you treat me so gently, so lovingly and i cant wait to be yours forever in holy Matrimony..

Darling, this is not even half of how much you mean to me.. I know the future is sooo bright for us and love, care, kindness is all part of what we will experience in our relationship.
I love that you are hardworking exemplified by your devotion to the gym (which produces that sexy body that  i love to admire) and i know that when you do get a job, you'll be an exemplary man/employer.

Darling, you are all that i want and need in my life. Your love is a gift to me from God and i promise to love you unconditionally and make you feel like the only man in the world.

My love, my body, my heart, my soul is yours for the taking, now and forever more.

I love you and cherish you and our love.

Yours,
Your lovingly girlfriend, fiancee and wife. :-)

Like Crazy

So i have been sharing my life especially my non existent soon to be exisent love life. I hereby declare that i think i found my man. Yes, ironically enough, this blog is entitled "Finding the man" yet now i think i found him.
Why do i say this, i say this because as my other posts have provided a background, i met this guy in church and we've serving together in the youth ministry. Read my post: Is there a one? or click on
http://lnjuma.blogspot.com/ for the whole story.

Anyway, am sure now you are up to date with the whole story. I will share how i know he is the one is my next post. :-)
A few weeks ago, this man that makes me smile, confessed his feelings to me... It was yeah not moment. It was yeah because i know he'd been feeling that he was too constrained to truly share his feelings but not because am not ready to hear such words from anybody new unless those i exchange such words with.. It was honestly scary and sent my mind and heart racing for all the wrong/right resons. Yes it is true i want to hear the man say this but i can not handle that now. Am healing from a past relationship and engaging this man now would not only be wrong but unfair to both he and i considering we will be in the relationship together.
And so we took a break from each other: no phone calls, texts, emails, chats, hugs, no nothing other than the casual hi and bye when we meet every Sunday... And its been the hardest thing ever...

Its been almost 2 weeks since the break and to be honest I miss my man like crazy! I always delighted in knowing that he was near to me but now there is nothing! Am complaining yet am the one who set the rules! He is sooo handsome! Damn! Thank you God for making my man that hot! I call him my man because I now know that he is mine and for life I believe! He is the one I want to call my own,to call whenever and anytime ,to receive nothing but sweet texts,emails,letters from,the one I want to call baby and all other sweet names,the one whose heart he has given to me to take care of it! I really do adore this man with all that i am.

I extended the break meaning i will be off him until next year!! This sends loneliness shivers all over my skin but i know it was the best!!

I think of him every single day!! He is like the second thought registered in my mind after my God. I think of how sweet he is, how amazing our future together will be, how much i miss and will miss him for the time we will be apart!!

It was sooo sweet yet disheartening seeing him crushed when i told him how long our break would be. But i like the fact that he took it positively and he is willing to support me in all this. Just goes to show how sweet and amazing he is. I really like him and as much as i would love to be with him for the next coming months, i would rather wait and enjoy the rest of my life with him, furthermore how does 4 months compare to a whole lifetime? How i pray God will grant us our desires.

However, I will not be totally apart from him, I got Sundays to see him: for me to put a face to the man that he is , to see the biggest smile on that handsome face of his, to see how sexy and good looking he still is and see how devoted and sold out to God He really is. Once in a while when we will be visiting our Pastors, i will get the chance to hear his wise words and his hearty laugh, this will be music to my ears!!


I miss him but i cant wait for this period to be over, then fireworks, love, friendship and companionship will be our portion.
Amen to this prayer...... :-)